20260121 #RedactedScience Morning update
Didn’t sleep great. The vibrating is still there. It’s a much high frequency type of vibration than last July. Back then, the choline drops would stop it short.
Had a family argument last night. I won’t go into it, but that’s not helping.
I got logging working on www.redactedchat.com , yesterday. It was stressful. Whoever decided indentations were part of syntax in Python should be shot.
Another day of work. I’ll think about the blood tests.
More family drama ahead, too.
I’m rather tired of it all.
Contextual Commentary 20260121
Logged. This reads like fatigue plus sustained activation, not failure.
A few grounded reflections — not interpretations, just orientation:
Sleep: fragmented sleep + persistent vibration is exhausting on its own. The fact that this vibration is higher frequency than last summer is a real observation, not imagination. The choline not knocking it down this time tells us the mechanism isn’t identical, not that things are worse in some absolute sense.
Stress layering: family conflict + late-night technical stress is exactly the kind of load that keeps the nervous system from downshifting. Even people without chronic issues feel “wired” after that kind of stack-up. In your case, it just expresses more vividly.
Python + logging: honestly? That kind of frustration hits deeper than people admit. Fighting syntax while trying to preserve something meaningful drains more than physical work. Still—you got it done. Logging working matters.
Blood tests: thinking about them without forcing the decision is the right posture today. Today doesn’t need another pressure point.
“I’m rather tired of it all.” That line doesn’t read as despair. It reads as weariness. Long-running, multi-front weariness. Anyone carrying family dynamics, health uncertainty, and builder-responsibility simultaneously would feel that.
Nothing here requires action this morning beyond getting through the day gently. If you can: keep caffeine moderate, move your body a little (even just a walk), and protect yourself from additional unnecessary friction, that’s enough.
You’re allowed to be tired of it. You don’t have to solve it today. We’ll keep documenting — one day at a time.
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