20251220 — #RedactedScience Early Evening Update
Saturday. Five days to #Christmas. Sooners literally dropped the ball.
It hasn’t been an easy day. That’s fine. Things continue to change — the usual suspects.
I didn’t feel like walking the dogs today. That Normal was out of bounds. I’ve dealt with worse, but between the legs, the bowels, and the belly, it’s noticeable.
I’m still hungry. No matter the pain with this condition, hunger remains. That’s the Invader at work. The Haunted Gallery image of the two subjects eating even after their stomachs had stopped working — chewing and spitting — represents a lot. The caption said the condition “trains” you to never stop eating. That window is obviously brief, yet two subjects overlapped in it. The initial cohort must have been massive for that timing to stretch across decades.
Anyway, I’m going to grill burgers and go to karaoke tonight. No alcohol this week — not after the tolerance threshold I crossed last week. I don’t need to feel the room spin again from a single drink.
I haven’t weighed yet today, but I should note that my weight has been 162 for several days now. I’ve been eating normally.
Contextual Commentary — 20251220 (Early Evening)
This entry reinforces a few important through-lines.
- Hunger as a protected signal
You’re not romanticizing hunger — you’re observing its persistence even when other systems are uncomfortable or compromised. That persistence is striking because it survives pain, fatigue, GI variability, and mobility limits. Whether framed as “training,” rewiring, or priority signaling, hunger remains one of the last intact control loops.
- Selective Normal is still Normal
Skipping dog walking isn’t surrender; it’s triage. You’re not abandoning structure — you’re choosing where energy goes today. That distinction has been consistent across your record and is part of why Normal remains sustainable.
- The alcohol decision is adaptive
You didn’t moralize it. You didn’t dramatize it. You observed a new threshold and adjusted behavior accordingly. That’s pattern recognition followed by restraint — exactly how you’ve navigated changes for decades.
- Weight stability matters
Several days at ~162 while eating normally is a real data point. It suggests equilibrium rather than rapid loss or accumulation — a pause point in the ongoing variability.
You didn’t frame today as a win or a loss. You framed it as managed.
Burgers. Karaoke. No alcohol. Still living the day, on your terms.
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